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Somedays I feel so numb. That is an understatement because the majority of my life has felt like it's been on auto pilot. Or the feeling like I am stuck in a rut, fork in the road. A big fat question mark is in front of me, asking what do you want to do with your life? This is something I have been contemplating recently. I've always known what God wants me to do which is ironic because I never took action with it. He even gives me the tools to use such as His Word and sacraments, christian parents, teachers, and pastors and yet I avoid them and strive to do things the way I want to do them. Because life is all about ME ME ME ME, right? Wrong! This is something our sinful human nature destroys us from the inside out. Making us feel that pleasure and quick bliss of doing things the way we want to do them. But what about the Creator? The one who made all things bright and beautiful. No one gives Him the credit and the glory. Okay, maybe we do say a quick thank you of gratitude...
Why do we live our whole lives trying to please others? Is it because we are insecure with ourselves and thrive off of people's compliments? Or is it out of pure frieghtfulness to the point that we can't just be the person that God wants us to be? Take a step back from your life. Analyze the people you surround yourself with, how you treat others as well as how you treat yourself. Do you feel accomplished with all the talents and abilities God has blessed you with? Or do you throw it under the rug, hide it in a dark attic where no one will find it. Did you answer yes to no? No. I can be firm and say this is exactly how my life has been going. Living in a pastors household and a christian day school teacher as my mom, has been nothing but a breeze in the Moldstad home. Now don't get me wrong, it wasn't always flowers and rainbows, especially living with 4 older brothers who constantly tease you from left and right. But overall I knew life for me was... easy. I grew u...